Throughout my month as "expert" blogger I will be looking at the problem, addictive behaviours, as a researcher in the area of affective and clinical neuroscience and neuro psychology and as someone who has also recovered from alcoholism and substance and behavioural addiction.
I am someone who marries experimental evidence with ancedotal - this is hugely important for me, explaining what I have learnt, been taught and observed in the rooms of AA. AA meetings have also taught me how to live. I seek to substantiate this vast experiential wisdom by explaining some of what I have learnt in other terms, in terms of neuro psychology, i.e. what happens to the brain and behaviour as the result of addiction and what happens in recovery also.
I will alternate between blogging about the problem and blogging about the solution, the disorder and the recovery. I also seek to explain this spiritual malady as an emotional disorder.
I am often asked what I mean by "recovered". I simply mean restored to sanity. I have the power to make sane, sensible, reasonable, "sober" decisions today in a way I could never before.
In a sense my addictive behaviours were constantly the result of a decision making deficit (to be blogged about later) which always ended in pain. My thoughts and decisions got me to AA not just the final decision to go to my first AA meeting. My best thinking ended up in catastrophic degradation of my health, mind, body, spirituality and emotional well being. I have recovered all these thanks to the 12 step program of AA....