Hello my blog name is Paul. I am blogging from the UK, hence the strange spelling at times!
Thank you to Addictionland for having me as an "expert" blogger for the month of December which is a special month for me as it was in this month, a number of years ago, that I found recovery in the rooms of AA.
I had not even heard of 12 step programs before my first meeting and believe that I had some form of psychic change at the meeting, for two main reasons - I had giving up completely or surrendered and the identification I had with those assembled in that room was enormous.
I felt listening to their "shares" that these people where just like me, that I had strangely come home, looking back. I had finally found the club or society of people that I belonged in. No longer felt isolated or alone. I had been accepted fully for what I was. As someone who has had an, at times, abusive upbringing and an insecure attachment to my primary care giver, it was a beginning of a journey home, the beginning of an earned attachment, the start of my adoption into a surrogate home and family in fellowship.
This is my recovery, 12 step recovery, although I am not blinkered to other forms and have researched many other therapies too. The ideas in some are very insightful and if it works, work it....