Hello and Welcome Recovery Friends,
I've been a little in a daze from the long Labor Day weekend. I had some highs, and some really low lows. I was invited to be a Guest Recovery Author on Peoples Internet Radio this past Friday, August 29th 2014. But I also got some very sad news as well. My host of Peoples Internet Radio, Stephen Roberts interviewed me about my book. Addicted To Dimes, and we talked about many important issues of problem & addicted gambling addiction, alcohol abuse, and the hot topic of the negative affects with the expansion of Casinos & State Lotteries. The interview went so well, we ended up talking for 2 hours!! I had no idea my interview was also being live streamed on two other internet radio shows besides just Peoples Internet radio.
It was by far the best radio interview I have done! We had callers commenting, and asking questions from as far away as Ireland, Scotland, and the UK, besides the United States! So, if you didn't get a chance to tune in on your computer or laptop, here is the MP3 player link to the interview and listen for yourself! I also promised the listeners I would do a follow up blog post from the show, as I gave out some important information, web sites, and phone numbers for recovery help. So I wanted to share it here on my Addictionland blog too, as a couple callers said they come visit my blog her as well.
The other news is that on the same day as my show, I found out the following day that Mental illness claimed another of my very good friends!!!
She was a Wordpress blogger, writer, just became a new author of her book; "Bright Shining Star" Kaitlyn's Story. See, she had lost her 23 year old daughter to suicide a year and a half ago. She was blogging her journey to other parents get over a tragic loss like SUICIDE of their child. She was an advocate like me, in recovery and suffered from mental illness and disorders like I do. And like the resent death of actor, Robin Williams, I'm
really growing weary of all this precious life being lost to addiction, mental & emotional illness, and suicide!!
So, if you find time over the weekend, please come by my other blog that I do book & media promotions on and see the Tribute of my good friend, Rhonda Sellers Elkins. She will and is deeply missed by many of us ... http://anAuthorandWriterinProgress.wordpress.com
Here is my Recovery Radio Show Wrap Up!
I had been invited to Peoples Internet Radio by host, Stephen Roberts to join him this past Friday evening to talk about my current book, problem & addicted gambling, recovery, and a few more hot topics. And the interview was so awesome, we where on for just about 2 hours! And as promised, here is a wrap up of some of the topics we discussed, and recovery resources I had given out during the show.
I’d like to first say, Thank You again to my host, Stephen Roberts for inviting me to his show. Well, I also kind of invited myself really. LOL. I say this because as some of you know, I do book & social media promoting for other authors. And, Stephen has had 2 of my clients on his show earlier. It’s actually how we met. He is such a great guy with a fun sense of humor.
A little about Peoples Internet Radio, Seeking Sovereign Solutions, http://peoplesinternetradio.com/ it is a movement for and by the people to take our country of America back! It is a place where podcasts are broadcast and heard by hosts who invite others to speak up, help inform, and to raise awareness of many issues facing our country. And one of those issues impacting our communities is the ever-expanding problems of Indian Casinos & State Lotteries. That was only one of the issues Stephen and I spoke about. We talked about my book, Addicted To Dimes, (Confessions of a Liar and a Cheat), which is my personal story of life touched by childhood sex abuse, discipline abuse, living with mental and emotional illness and disorders, and gambling and alcohol addictions.
We also had people calling and typing in through Facebook, as my interview was live streamed on 3 different podcast links. We even had people commenting as far away from Ireland, Scotland, and United Kingdom! I do have to say a ‘Special’ shout out to “Jimmy & Sean” for your questions, and very kind comments during the show! I also explained my own personal devastation I caused with my gambling addiction in my life. Some don’t always agree with me about the why’s of someone choosing addiction in the first place.
My experience is that, like Jimmy mentioned in his comment, when in rehab or treatment, it seems the professionals just treat the symptoms, and not some of the underlying issues that may have led us to use addictions to cope with life challenges and traumatic life events.
From a relapse prevention point of view, those life events if we are not ready for them, can be a source of relapse. I know it was difficult for me in this area as well. The first failed suicide attempt in 2002 of mine,
from 2 life events that hit me hard was two people close to me passed away of cancer. Then my mom passed in 2003. So life, if not ready can cause a relapse. You need to have a plan in place.
When all that happened to me I went via the hospital to an addictions/mental health crisis center. That’s when my primary doctor, and the center psychiatrist found I had been suffering Bipolar 2 severe depression, PTSD, OCD, and mild anxiety mania. So in 2002 is when I was started on bipolar and anti-depressant meds.
So those were some of the underlying issues that compounded, and seem to set me up for some type of addictions to cope, escape and numb out from the grief, and from my past traumatic childhood.
Of course, as I discussed with Stephen that when you are raised in a household that you speak of things outside our home about anything that might bring shame to the family, and to not know there are healthy ways to get help and process past hurt and pain. Then many do use addiction to try to escape from it. To not feel those unpleasant feelings and emotions. So it wasn’t until I started work on processing my past pains, and working with an addiction specialist, who taught my also how to break down the cycle of my addiction. A cycle has a beginning, a middle, and an end. Here is what it looks like.