On my run this morning, I was thinking about the "waves" of life and how to stay afloat when the going gets rough. Perfectly calm water can only exist in a vacuum. Because other elements exist, like earth, air and fire, the water is affected and waves arise. On a perfect day, when I have practiced many of my spiritual disciplines such as acceptance, exercise, breathing, service to others or meditation, my inner self is calm and I have a better chance of responding to life. On other days, when I rush out my front door to work without reading a positive passage or taking time to get centered, I am more easily disturbed by the blowing of the wind, shifting of the earth and heat of the fire.
I am extremely grateful for my recovery lifestyle which shifted me away from constantly being a victim into a life of empowerment. I face many circumstances today which have the potential to completely paralyze me with fear or pain and, instead, I CHOOSE recovery. I am able to choose it because I am not on drugs. When I use drugs/alcohol or any mind/mood altering substance, I lose my choice. I work a program one day at a time, year after year, for close to 17 years now, because the risidual effect of doing so is what helps me face and flow with life's waves.
Today, I expect waves. Today, I do my best to not close my eyes and turn my back on the waves. Today, I believe I can turn into the wave and ride it in the direction intended for me and end of up exactly where I am meant to be for the moment. Circumstances, like my mom's terminal illness, certainly weigh on my heart and mind greatly. I choose to be there for her. I choose to feel my feelings, share with my loved ones, cry my eyes out and then get up and go see my mom as often as I can. Changes at work impact me. My territory had two representatives working it for eight years. Now, it's just me. I could tell myself I can't do the work and complain or I can sit with my manager and strategize how to best spend my attention/effort and take responsibility for my efforts. Recovery teaches me to give every outcome to my higher power. I am only in charge of my attitude and my effort.
People misbehave all the time. I believe hurting people hurt people. I believe people show you who they are and their behaviors are about their wounds, not anyone elses. What the world needs now is a whole hell of lot more love, compassion and tolerance. Anger and resentment don't take effort. Rising above the wave does. For me, that begins with self-care. By attending to my mind, body and spirit each day, I calm the waters and can be of use to others instead of a hardship
All my best,