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I went to temple as a young girl but more for appearance sake than anything else. I did not grow up in a family where God was a topic of daily conversation. My family did not observe the Sabbath or take part in daily rituals to connect us with God. To me, my parents were God and what they said was law from the highest intelligence.  I was taught by their example that a person with intelligence and will power can accomplish most anything on his or her own.

Like many others, I accomplished much on that premise.  I was an honor student, Editor in Chief of the Yearbook, Most Likely to Succeed and I enjoyed a relationship with a terrific guy and had a multitude of interesting friends.  Yet, somehow, when senior year came around and I wasn't feeling too sure of myself-things started to go sour. Where would I go to college?  Would my parents ever accept my boyfriend?  Are my thighs to fat?  Am I enough? Increase Without a God of my understanding to turn to and parents who found it hard to understand my insecurity, I fell to pieces.

In recovery, I first came to believe in the power of a 12 step program to turn my life around.  Later, I came to believe in the love of the fellowship as well.  Eventually, I saw how I projected my parents ability (or inability) to unconditionally love and support me on to the God of my Understanding.  I limited God's power by viewing God as an extension of my parents rather than a separate entity with all power, all love, all understanding and all intelligence. 

Today, I see myself as a hand of God in the human world. When I choose to be a vehicle of his will (meaning less self-centeredness and more giving), my world expands.  If I feel forgotten or lost or filled with pain, it is because I have stepped away from the practices which connect me with my inner purpose.  Am I still getting to meetings? Am I still reaching out to those in need?  Am I doing my personal inventory on paper?  Am I asking for help? Am I admitting my errors and correcting them? Am I praying? Am I getting still and waiting for my direction.

God dwells within me as me.  If I can't find him, its probably because I am not sitting still.



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Cate Stevens. Founder of, has over fifteen years of recovery from food, drug, alcohol, cigarette and unhealthy relationship addiction. Cate’s approach to recovery is based on the 12 steps, as well the practice of spiritual principles, exercise, good nutrition, and meditation. Cate’s personal, ongoing recovery process has benefited tremendously from the free sponsorship of other women.

Cate has successfully coached hundreds of women to develop specific, daily action plans to support their personal and professional goals. Cate majored in journalism and communications and is the author of "Addictionland: Key Lessons from My Rollercoaster Ride to Freedom from Food, Drug, Alcohol, Cigarette and Unhealthy Relationship Addiction", a series of powerful vignettes.

As a motivational speaker, educator and coach, Cate is highly effective and inspirational. Cate leverages her experience from premier sales, management and leadership training programs to teach her clients how to be sober, productive and fulfilled.

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