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I started with lines of Meth but quickly wanted to try shooting it. I asked one of my friends who was shooting Meth and he said to me, “This will change your life.” I thought he was being dramatic, but in all honesty, it did change my life, because I got just as addicted to that needle as anything. It was all in the ritual and the process. Getting it, burning it, making it, pulling that cloud of blood, and pushing it back in. You get the taste of it in your mouth before it’s even in your body. I loved the ritual so much that if I had drugs but no needle, I’d hold onto the drugs until I could get one. It’s overwhelming what that needle did to me and how it controlled my life for the next ten years.

My drug addiction overtook my life and I started doing crazy things. I’d go to Las Vegas to score a bunch of dope get loaded for days on end. I’d sell drugs to support my habit, I began ripping off everyone I knew, and started to get into a little bit of trouble with the law.

Because of my hookups, I could get pills for around $5 each, then turn around and sell them for $40. I’d use the money to purchase Meth and Heroine. If I didn’t have the money, I’d steal, manipulate, and hustle to get the drugs. I’d even walk into convenience stores, grab two cases of beer, and walk right out like I owned the place. I wasn’t even stealing the good beer either, I’d take two 30-packs of Stroh’s because that’s as much as I could carry. One time a big Polynesian lady gave chase and, being 130 pounds, I couldn’t outrun her with a case in each hand. I was running as fast as I could but she was catching up to me, so I had to ditch one of the 30s. It must have looked really interesting to the bystanders as I ran down the road, hugging a case of 30s while a big Polynesian lady chased me.

I made it back to the hotel and was out on the front porch smoking a cigarette when I saw a police car pull up to the building. I knew that police car was coming for me, but I just didn’t have it in me to run anymore. That was a moment of clarity and serenity for me. I could have taken off and probably got away, because I would have had a huge head start, but I just sat there and smoked that cigarette. I watched them go to the lobby, come up the stairs, walk towards me, and I just surrendered right there. I wanted to be done using but I didn’t know how. I wanted to be sober, but I didn’t think it was possible for me, because once I got sober, that’s when the true pain would begin. They took me to the Utah county jail where I detoxed over the next few days. Detoxing in jail was terrible but I also think it might be the best way to do it. Nobody is going to come and check on you, see how you’re doing or what they can do for you. You just have to suffer and you can’t act like a little bitch about it because you’re in jail. I appeared before the same judge I had to present to many times before, and this judge had given me every chance in the past, but this time he was finally fed up with me and sentenced me to serve a year in jail.

This is a portion of an incredibly moving story I wrote about my friend. Please check out the rest of it at https://brightonrecoverycenter.com/needles-new-life-matts-story-rehab-recovery/

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After going through rehab, IOP, and OP treatments several times, I realized that part of my tendency to relapse was due to where I live and the amount of travel I do. I also found out the eCounseling or online therapy was the solution for me. I live in a rural area that does not have much access to licensed therapists that are experienced in substance abuse. And even if there was, I spend a lot of time traveling for work, which made it hard to see a therapist on a regular basis anyway. I heard about using eCounseling Essentials for my outpatient treatment from a friend and it has be amazing, so I wanted to share it with the community here on Addiction Land. eCounseling Essentials does all their therapy sessions over HIPAA compliant video calls. At my appointed time, I can login from anywhere I have a connection and do a 50-minute session with my therapist. I love it! 

Right now they are offering free trials too. You can do a full 50-minute free trial with no obligation just to see if you like it. That’s how I started and I was surprised to find out that they didn’t even want my credit card before starting the trial, there really was no obligation. The therapist was wonderful and I like the online therapy platform we used. It was so easy and convenient. I have been using it for my OP treatment for several months now and I am so glad I found it. I hope this is helpful for someone, as it has been for me. 

Thanks!

 

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Why would a Utah rehab center want to particularly reach out to artists? According to the Center of Disease Control and Prevention, opioids kills 90 people in the U.S. every day, and, as it turns out, a disproportionate number of those deaths are artists.  

 

Artists, and musicians especially, find themselves victims of addiction for a number of reasons, but here we will talk about two of the biggest.

 

Depression:

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Posted by on in Drug Addiction

Why The Stigma of Drug and Alcohol Addiction Holds Everyone Back

 

Stigma is the look on their face when they find out you've done drugs. It's the judgment that crossed their minds. It's the assumption that you must have a lesser mental capacity than most. It's having to lie about your past for fear of being viewed as a criminal. It's not always obvious, except to the addict and likely to those who have loved an addict. Common misconceptions include thinking that willpower can cure addiction, or that more severe punishments will motivate addicts to stop using. Many even think that terming addiction a ‘disease’ is just an excuse. When it comes to addiction recovery, this stigma can be the biggest hurdle of all.

 

Stigma increases the difficulty individuals and families face when seeking the help they desperately need. This results in many people preferring to delay or avoid treatment rather than face the stigma from co-workers, managers, friends, and even family. This tends to only deepens the isolation and the addictions. The Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration has estimated that 22.7 million Americans need drug and alcohol addiction treatment, but only 2.5 million people receive it. That's less than a one in ten.

 

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Posted by on in Drug Addiction

I have been using meth for nearly twenty years and have managed to live otherwise pretty healthy.  I don't lead the typical meth lifestyle and I eat and sleep and get lots of exercise.  I even have a job where I help out other addicts.  I am very isolated though and have no friends anymore and am very alone which I think makes it more difficult when trying to quit.  I really want to try though because I don't want to have to go away to rehab or something.  I would like to think that I can do it on my own.  I am just seeing what kind of resources and supports there are out there and hopefullyconnect with some others that are going through similar stuff as me.  I am just not feeling overly confident right now.  I appreciate any advice i can find about quitting.

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