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FOOD & MOOD IN RECOVERY

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Alida Schuyler MS, PCC, is a leading expert, trainer, speaker and consultant for Recovery Coaching worldwide. She is co-founder of Recovery Coaches International and Director of Crossroads Recovery Coaching Inc.

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STAND UP TO WORRY

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Thom Rutledge is the author of "Embracing Fear: How to Turn What Scare Us into Our Greatest Gift."

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The Shame of It All....

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Addiction is a primary, chronic disease of brain reward, motivation, memory and related circuitry. Dysfunction in these circuits leads to characteristic biological, psychological, social and spiritual manifestations. This is reflected in the individual pursuing reward and/or relief by substance use and other behaviors. The addiction is characterized by impairment in behavioral control, craving, inability to consistently abstain, and diminished recognition of significant problems with one’s behaviors and interpersonal relationships. Like other chronic diseases, addiction involves cycles of relapse and remission. Without treatment or engagement in recovery activities, addiction is progressive and can result in disability or premature death.

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THANKSGIVING FOR FOOD ADDICTS

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Caroline Miller, author of the bestselling book "My Name is Caroline", recalls the bulimic dream job of cleaning up after the family meal in this excerpt from her memoir. 

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Caroline Miller's Response to "Will Power, Diets and Bulimia" post

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Again, the loneliness of my disease reaches out to slap me as I recall vividly those scenes of despair and trying to cry out for real help, but shutting myself down just as quickly.  Now, with the benefit of hindsight, I wish I’d called even one of those therapists and taken the risk of being “seen” authentically, which would have broken the silence around me more decisively.  As it turned out, I had to get married to create the separation from my family that led me to finally seek help after hitting my last bottom.
 
I also wish I’d been something other than a number to my parents, who never seemed to comment on the fact that I was thriving academically at Harvard, and even on my way to graduating magna cum laude.  My brains came second to my body, and probably even to me at that point because it felt like the only thing anyone cared about.  What could have possibly made this nightmare end sooner for me?  More awareness of eating disorders, and open talk by people who were in recovery, and who could demystify the process of getting better.  It felt like a huge effort to even find the right people to reach out to, which is certainly not the case any longer.  There are blogs like this one, celebrities who go public (including the Disney actress who entered a treatment center this week for her eating disorder), and books galore for those who want to read more before they reach out. 
 
Still, there is always the shame and fear before identifying yourself as someone who is seen as “broken” by others, and whose behavior others find disgusting.  So I salute anyone who has the courage to raise their hand and ask for assistance, because by doing so, you enter a fraternity and sorority of some of the finest, most successful, and most interesting people on the face of the earth.

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WILL POWER, DIETS AND BULIMIA

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In this excerpt from her bestselling book on bulimia, Caroline Miller describes the criticism, shame and pressure that fueled her relentless self-loathing and despair.  Ordinarily successful in all her endeavors, Caroline has trouble accepting her inability to assert will power to fix her eating disorder.

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PURGING

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Reading Caroline's memoir brings up a great deal of emotion in me. Mainly, I feel gratitude for the new methods I have discovered in recovery to purge my emotions.  Before recovery, I often felt I was the only girl in the world tormented by food.  I felt worthless, disgusting and weak.  I expected little good for me and my future and bulimia was my way of coping with my despair.

In college, I came undone emotionally and exploded into multiple addictions. Bulimia was always a constant thread which held me together. Some days, I got in my car and drove from fast food restaurant to fast food restaurant ordering donuts, cheeseburgers, french fries and ice cream. IncreaseI never waited until I got home to begin binging on the food.  Instead, I drove around shoving fries in my mouth like a mad man on a hunger strike who has been without water for weeks.

I ate until my stomach was about to burst. I ate until my head was dizzy and my body was exhausted. To get the food up, I drank cups of water and pushed on my belly to dislodge the food.  I experienced deep relief when piles of vomit spewed from my mouth.  In those moments, I dispelled every once of pain I carried around with me.  In those moments, I expelled everything dirty and wrong and ugly about me.

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BULIMIA AND ABUSE

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Bestselling author of "My Name is Caroline", the first major autobiography on bulimia, shares about the overwhelming despair that prompted her to abuse herself bodily and mentally.  As a recovered bulimic myself, I relate to Caroline's rejection of self despite her upstanding, affluent family and her enjoyment of many of life's finest pleasures.

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ADDICTION AND INADEQUACY

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In grade school, I suffered from a feeling of inadequacy. I thought I should feel more girly or more popular or more confident.  Instead, I walked around wishing I was as smart as my brother, as skinny as my best friend or as beautiful as Brooke Shields. I suffered the constant belief I would feel complete when I achieved "X".

As the years passed, my idea of "X' changed.  I focused on the next boyfriend or the next job or my pant size to fulfill me. I got many of the things I wanted and still, I felt empty.  As friends married, I wondered what was wrong with me.  As cousins had children, I stewed in envy. In silent desperation I cried, "Where's my man? Where's my baby? Where's my great life?"

I made no connection between esteemable acts and my self-esteem. If I wanted to achieve success in life, I had to be willing to work for  it. If I want to be thin or educated or well off, I needed to apply effort and be honest with myself. IncreaseBecause I cut corners (like binging and purging instead of eating right and exercising), I never felt whole.

Today, I know anything is possible when I am tenacious and I apply the right action.

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Bulimia Survivor: My Name is Caroline

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My Name is Caroline is one of the first books written by a survivor of an eating disorder that addresses how to free your life of food and weight obsessions.

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