In my experience, getting honest is a long and interesting process. I take baby steps in the direction of my ideal and day by day I arrive. Currently, I am in the process of coming out of the proverbial closet with my addiction memoir. As a working professional in an unrelated industry, I write, blog and interview under a pseudonym to protect my career and my family.
Getting honest in public is extremely liberating, however, I struggle with the feeling I am leading a double life since I have not gone public with my real identity. While I have many good reasons for remaining anonymous, if I am honest, I also have several unhealthy reasons for doing so. Primarily, I am a caretaker and worry how my experience of the truth will cast unfavorable lights on the people I love.
In the areas I hold back, I ask for spiritual help and wisdom. After years of recovery, I know better than to make important decisions on my own. I do not know which road I am meant to follow, but I know I will be guided if I am open. As the literature says, God is more interested in the buiding of my character than the name of my character!