Hey..There's nothing I can find wrong with repeating over and over "one day at a time one day at a time". Tomorrow's a mystery, yesterday's history. It's just today 24 hours. One day without one drink. Nothing can happen in a 24 hour period that a drink or drug won't make worse. Whatever works. Before any real 12 Step experience ya do whatever you need to do to get through one day without one drink. Stand on one leg and chant some Eastern religious mantra, steal a car and go to Las Vegas, accept the Lord Jesus into your life, find a new AA girlfriend with decent credit that hasn't dated anyone in your home group....I don't know, fill in the blank yourself..
It's just completely overwhelming, old alcoholically fogged feelings are here again as if clear and present danger. You're new and barely making it to the end of the day with yourself and WHAM! BOOF! ZAP! You are blindsided with a stream of morbid reflection. In an effort to survive the day there's nothing wrong with repeating over and over "thy will be done thy will be done" in a desperate effort to shut off the maniac memory machine and get some sleep. Chosen words to cast out demons? You decide.
We drink for a reason and when we put the booze down the reasons are sometimes blaring! The underlying causes have yet to be addressed.. Like, yeah.. It was a good meeting. Shucking and jiving at the butt can, having a few laughs and drinking coffee, fellowshipping with my AA friends as I pound out meeting after meeting. Life is certainly much better sober but now they've all gone wherever they go and as I settle in to bed for a good nights sleep? I am alone and again in bad company, reminded of how my ex-wife (who I haven't even seen in 10 years)didn't want me around anymore and she was seeing someone else now more responsible than me and of course better in bed. And I can forget about visitation with my daughter as I stand on her doorstep in the freezing rain unwelcome inside as if it's happening right now over and over... Ugh..Thy will be done thy will be done..Huh? Daddy is embarrassed of me as a son? Arrested again! I'm a failure and will never amount to anything? OOH..everybody hates me. I'm a loser. they're all talking behind my back right now probably? thy will be done thy will be done thy will be done.. Sure, that works. I can relate to that whole making it through one more day by the skin of my teeth. I have been there many times.
Then there's "it's one day at a time" but we're obviously all in different days? I could tell myself this when I was resentful toward other AA members or when I just fell off and had no idea what was going on. The best I could seem to do was simply show up. Don't drink go to meetings and ask for help. More than that I just could not do.