Recently, I became more aware of the way "drama" has infiltrated my life, thinking and fulfillment. Early on, I witnessed plenty of drama, which included melt downs, loud arguments, silent withdrawls, he said-she said, woe is me and ain't it just terrible!
In recovery, I became aware of how the witnessing of drama turned into personal drama as a way of life. In place of healthy coping mechanisms, I too learned to rely on substances instead of handling my upsets and issues head on. I learned to rely on drama to provide me with a sense of purpose, excitement and entitlement.
Now, after fifteen years sober and recent encounters with other highly neurotic, dramatic and unstable people, I finally see what it is that God is trying to teach me. Thankfully, I have learned many coping mechanisms over the last fifteen years and I know what to do when I am triggered by outside or inner drama.
Additionally, I clearly see that it is my job to politely say "No, thank you" to the drama queens in my life and allow them to have their fits without getting entangled. I can still love and support certain individuals but I no longer have to be their confidante in order to be valuable. I believed if I wasn't "there" for these people, they would be angry with me, punish me and possibly perish....