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Introduction ~~ Hello, I'm a Recovering Addicted Gambler...

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Hello Addictionland Members and Friends,
I thought I'd come by and introduce myself, and to THANK Cate for inviting me as Guest Blogger/Expert for the Month of October. I'm very "Humbled" and Excited.
I hope I can give some insight and give a little education on the dangers of Compulsive Addicted Gambling. My first book released Nov, 2012 and eBook for Kindle Readers this past May. 2013, I shared my personal life story of my addiction and much more. My second almost ready for release early winter will be more on the Disease of Compulsive Addicted Gambling, and how to recover. I invite you to stop by my Recovery Blog at http://CatherineLyonaddictedtodimes.wordpress.com anytime and check out my Helpful *Recovery Resources Pages*....
Through my book Addicted To Dimes, (Confessions of a liar and a Cheat) and my Recovery Blog, I continue the rest of my story, and share Help & Hope to others. I look forward to meeting and interacting with you here the whole month of October and beyond.

Warm Regards & Blessings,
Author, Catherine Townsend-Lyon
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Locating Feelings

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Buddhist Singing BowlSitting in meditation last night, I had a rather pleasant sit. Sitting with a facilitator leading the sit, I followed from concentration into open awareness. As usual, my mind wandered. I was able to gently bring my mind back and avoid the judgement that I often have. In the traditional open awareness practice, we were instructed to note where our attention was. The facilitator included the examples of breath, physical sensation, thought, and sound. All was quite pleasant until the facilitator said, "For these last few minutes before the bell rings, put extra effort forth to focus."

As soon as this was said, anxiety took over. Although I was in the midst of a pleasant sit, the thought of ending the sit brought about great emotion. I had been able to bring my mind back and settle throughout the sit, but I began to struggle with the anxiety. It was slightly stronger than anything else I had experienced during my meditation, and my mind followed it for a bit. Bringing it back, I had an interesting insight.

I tried noting that my focus had turned to a feeling. However, it was rather abstract for me to see this anxiety as a feeling. I put effort forth to truly be presently aware, and found that the "feeling" rested greatly in my body. My heart rate had increased, which I could feel in my chest and my arms and my shoulders and neck became tense. Noticing the physical sensation, it truly was where the anxiety rested.

My mind also had a part in the anxiety, but it was far less obvious that it was in my body. When I heard that the sit was almost over, my mind habitually activated, and the anxiety manifested in my body. My conclusion with this experience was that the anxiety rested mostly in my body.

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THE BEST ANTIDEPRESSANT

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As far back as college, a therapist I visited to address my eating disorder recommended antidepressant medication.  At the time, Prozac and Wellbutrin were favorites.  Something inside of me persuaded me not to take that path and, right or wrong, I ended up in a 12 step program by the age of 31. I was depressed, very anxious, nuerotic in some respects and active in multiple addictions.  I suffered from alcohol abuse, drug abuse, bulimia, unhealthy personal and romantic relationships and cigarette addiction.  I was referred to a Psychiatrist who specialized in addiction treatment.  He wanted to put me on another type of medication to help me focus.  He said it seemed as if a freight train was running through my head. Again, something inside of me said, "I don't think medication is the right road for you." I did try the pill he suggested and the next day awoke to slurred speech.  I was horrified.  The medication was altering me in a way alcohol once did and it scared me to death.  The psychiatrist recommended I wait it out and let the medication work to stabalize me.  I made a choice to take a different road. I continued working with a sponsor throughout my recovery.  I added a fantastic therapist to the mix, as well as some meditation, exercise and artistic endeavors.  One day at a time, over several years, my addictions fell from me like dead leaves.  I began to flourish in my life and I know it is a direct result of the following behaviors which act as the best antidepressants to this day: 1. HELP ANOTHER PERSON WITHOUT EXPECTING ANYTHING IN RETURN 2. MAKE A MENTAL OR PHYSICAL GRATITUDE LIST FOR ALL THAT IS GOING WELL IN YOUR LIFE, BECAUSE OF YOU AND DESPITE YOU 3. BELONG TO A GROUP THAT GIVES YOUR LIFE MEANING 4. DO THINGS THAT MAKE YOUR HEART SING 5. MAKE SMALL OR LARGE GOALS AND ACHIEVE THEM FOR THE REWARD OF DOING SO 6. FORGIVE OTHERS This list is far from comprehensive, but is a great start. Studies have shown that antidepressant medications only make a significant difference in the lives of people who are severely depressed (won't get out of bed).  Otherwise, they are never curative and simply serve to address symptoms (ie, anxiety).  While this can be very effective for the short term, I have found positive actions to be a much better long term solution. I do not judge anyone who uses medication and it is working for them.  I only want to offer a different kind of solution to anyone who wishes to go another route to success.  I wish everyone on the road to recovery a successful outcome. All  my best,
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Women come in different body figures and there are lots of dresses available for all sizes.

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There are many reasons that a bride would pick up prom dresses online shop custom made: she knows what she wants exactly or she wants to design it by herself or have someone she knows design it, on average, a bride will try on nearly 20 gowns before finding the perfect wedding dress, or even many, many more. So, one of the best and of the worst parts of planning a wedding is buying a wedding dress. Cheap dresses can also take the same role of expensive one and all you need to do is open your eyes widely and searcher for one that suits your eyes. Women come in different body figures and there are lots of dresses available for all sizes.
Firstly, you must make sure find which styles are suitable for you most, for you can't try it on if you choose it online. young ladies want to buy the most fashionable styles, however the dress in fashion you like usually do not match you. You should keep calm among the large amount daze bridesmaid dresses online.
Save some pictures from those wedding magazines and shop online first. Find dresses that the style you like best and begin to have an image in your brain of what wedding dress you might want: you can limit your selection to dresses that meet your needs if you narrow down the sleeves, length and amount of beading before you set out to the stores. Then go with a friend whose opinion you believe when you're looking at a Bridal gowns UK sale store. Include some old ladies if permitted. Try on a large amount of wedding dresses.
You never know when it might come in handy. so take home a fabric sample to match with your shoes, veil and accessories. Carry it with you in your bag or in your purse so you've always got it at hands. For ladies, many of the popular clothing items are immodest or inappropriate .When you don't want to reveal a lot in a prom dress or It can be hard to dress attractively., Buying a suitable prom dress can be a long and difficult process.
Then, you should know which scale of price you can accept according to your budget. The online dress shops have all price range from low to high for each type of products. After you select it, make sure the size of you and choose the right size of the online dresses you want to buy. If you are confused with the size, contact with the online shop owner for advice.
If you are worried about your back and shoulders, donate it with a shawl and it usually looks quite good. or you can put a skirt or dress over a pair of super skinny jeans.
A completely different style just might surprise you! Don't skip looking checking out "on-the-rack" stores, outlet stores or trunk shows. You could find the cheap bridesmaid dresses uk of your dreams and save a boatload of money. Bring the same size that you expect to wear at the wedding.
Finally, pay for the dresses you chosen online.

 

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Riddle Me This?

Posted by kitcatlyon
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Are You a problem gambler?…Riddle Me This? Posted on September 21, 2013 by Author Catherine Townsend-Lyon WELL, ARE YOU?Well, it is another weekend……which means many in Recovery from Addiction have a pretty tough time in recovery on the weekends. I know I did when I still gambled. Weekends were to Blow Off Stress of the work week, not be bored, or…..when you gross that line into addicted gambling, your DISEASED mind would take you there if you wanted to or NOT! SO I POSE THIS QUESTION……ARE YOU A PROBLEM GAMBLER?As a support member of GA, (Gamblers Anonymous) gambling is defined as Follows,“Any betting or wagering for money or not, for yourself or others, and it depends on skill or chance constitutes gambling.”*RIDDLE ME THIS*  Want to know if you’re a Problem Gambler? Answer these 20 Questions HONESTLY…..and you’ll know if you are or not….20 Questions…*If you answer YES to 7 out of 20….You maybe a problem gambler*1.Did you ever lose time from work or school due to    gambling?YesNo2.Has gambling ever made your home life unhappy?YesNo3.Did gambling affect your reputation?YesNo4.Have you ever felt remorse after gambling?YesNo5.Did you ever gamble to get money with which to pay debts    or otherwise solve financial difficulties?YesNo6.Did gambling cause a decrease in your ambition or    efficiency?YesNo7.After losing did you feel you must return as soon as    possible and win back your losses?YesNo8.After a win did you have a strong urge to return and win    more?YesNo9.Did you often gamble until your last dollar was gone?YesNo10.Did you ever borrow to finance your gambling?YesNo11.Have you ever sold anything to finance gambling?YesNo12.Were you reluctant to use “gambling money” for normal    expenditures?YesNo13.Did gambling make you careless of the welfare of  yourself    or your family?YesNo14.Did you ever gamble longer than you had planned?YesNo15.Have you ever gambled to escape worry, trouble, boredom or loneliness?YesNo16.Have you ever committed, or considered committing, an    illegal act to finance gambling?YesNo17.Did gambling cause you to have difficulty in sleeping?YesNo18.Do arguments, disappointments or frustrations create    within you an urge to gamble?YesNo19.Did you ever have an urge to celebrate any good fortune by    a few hours of gambling?YesNo20.Have you ever considered self-destruction or suicide as a    result of your gambling?YesNo **IF YOU ANSWERED *YES* TO 7 out of 20….YOU MAYBE A PROBLEM GAMBLER** I know after a while crossing that line into addicted compulsive gambling, the ACT became more like being held hostage to those damn SLOT & VIDEO POKER machines! You start to lose yourself, just ZONE OUT because I used gambling as a form of *ESCAPE* from stress, tension, old hauntings of my past childhood abuse, grief from the loss of my mom in 2003, my best friend in 2002, and having OCD brought out *HIGH MANIA* from my Undiagnosed Bipolar 2 disorder.I had NO CONTROL over my gambling. It just about destroyed my life, and myself along with it!  This Cunning Disease took everything that was GOOD in my LIFE, including me with 2 failed Suicide attempts. It was no fun anymore, and when I gambled, I had no control. I’d win thousands in one day, but that just meant I’d be held HOSTAGE Longer until I gambled every single penny away, and MORE of my own money.Winning can be an UGLIER BEAST then losing. They BOTH will keep you in the CYCLE of the addiction. Winning makes you think that you’ll WIN ALL THE TIME….Losing will also keep you in the cycle, because you’ll keep going BACK TO CHASE WHAT you LOST!That’s why we call it a *CUNNING* disease & illness.One PROFOUND MOMENT I can share is the DAY I learned about the Oregon Lottery Video Poker/Slot Machines. My best friend and I went to a little Deli for lunch on Saturdays. In Oregon, these type of places were allowed to have 6 video poker machines in their stores.So, as we ate lunch, I’d play Keno,….as the Oregon Lottery also offered this. We met some nice retired guys that I’d seen there before, and we got to talking to them. One of the gentleman went on the other side where the machines were. I was watching him play a Video Poker Game called: “FlushFever”… So, I sat down next to him on an open machine, and I put $5.00 dollars in and won $50!….He explained how the game works, so I gave it try. He had racked up $178 dollars already in just 15 minutes!! I thought WOW!, this is awesome!! SO,….as I was playing, the sweet retired man cashed out his winning ticket from his machine, and went to the cashier and got his winnings.Before he left,…..he came over to me, bent down near my ear and SAID, “Be smart, always cash out and leave with THEIR  MONEY, don’t play it all out, I’d feel bad if you got addicted to these damn Machines”……You know what?,  I never saw that man again after that day. If HE ONLY KNEW what I had been through with addicted gambling!!The other thing about this disease is what it can make you do in the addicted moment….It makes you LIE, CHEAT, BLAME, STEAL, become a THIEF, and SO MUCH MORE. But that is another blog post in its self!  I can not tell you HOW much I hated WHO I’D BECOME within my Compulsive Gambling Addiction!! Towards the end, after my 2nd failed SUICIDE attempt in 2006…..(I stopped taking my meds for Bipolar & had a bad Gambling Relapse because I just wanted to BE NORMAL)…I stopped looking in the bathroom mirror at myself because, I HATED WHAT GAMBLING ADDICTION had done to ME!So, I guess my POINT in all this DISCLOSURE, is to ask a SIMPLE QUESTION….ARE

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Learning To Live With Your New Life Of Sobriety

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For alll of us that have had an addiction to alcohol for many years, we are so frighten to change our life, and live that life of sobriety.  For myself, I wanted to live sober, but I was so frightened of how I would be able to get along in life without my crutch of alcohol.

Our first step is to want to get sober and stay sober for the rest of our lives.  That is the number one thing, at least it was it was for myself.  You need to want sober and not be forced, threatened into changing your life.

For many alcoholics that want to change their and get sober, I would advise you to get the Professional Help needed to detox in a safe and healthy manner.

For myself, I did not take that approach, and to tell you the truth once I made up my mind to surrender to my demons and get sober, I was so afraid of what would happen to me over the period of time in the beginning of my sobriety.  I truly took a huge change on my life by not getting sober in a safe and healthy manner.

I was one of the lucky people that nothing happened bad to me, although I was a nervous wreck for weeks, but I stood my grounds and never broke my promise to myself that no matter how I felt and how bad I wanted to have drink I would NOT pick up an alcoholic drink for the rest of my life.

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Any Lengths Necessary

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A post from The Easier Softer Way's newest team member, Natasha!

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Step 9: Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

My name is Natasha and I’m an alcoholic and an addict. When I came into the program I was willing to do anything my sponsor told me. Until I got to the Ninth Step. Make amends to people? Seriously!????!!!!!!

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12 Ways to be of Service (and some extras!)

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volunteers needed1. Get a commitment at a meeting you regularly attend.

2. Use a phone list from a meeting to reach out to strangers.

3. Call a fellow addict and focus on how they are doing.

4. Call your local Central Office; there are often opportunities to help... Phone shifts often need covering.

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As Sick as Our Secrets

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keepingsecretsWhen I was newly sober, I was told that we are as sick as our secrets. I incorrectly dismissed this as another cliché, like “one day at a time” or “keep it simple” (both of which turned out to also be true). As I look back on my drug addiction and early sobriety, I can see pretty clearly how my honesty is proportional to my happiness.

Before getting sober, my entire life was a secret. There were superficial things such as the clandestine drug use or the stealing. There were also deeper secrets such as my immense fear, insecurity, and shame. Together, my secrets drove me, creating a person that I didn’t even want to be around myself. I lied to myself more frequently than I even had lied to others, I pushed down every unpleasant thought and emotion, and I had absolutely no genuine feeling of who I was.

Getting sober, I was given the opportunity to come clean; both to myself and to others. Part of the recovery process was to write down these things that I had done wrong, things that I had assumed I would take to the grave out of shame. With some help, I was able to be just partly open about my life. As I shared what I had done with a trusted loved one, I found that he had done many of the same things in his addiction as well. As this reassured me, I began speaking with more people about my faults and mistakes, only to find that my community of sober people knew from their own personal experience exactly how I felt after keeping so many secrets.

As I grew more comfortable, I became able to truly address the secrets I had kept. The deeper secrets came out, and I even gained knowledge of some secrets I had kept from myself. As I opened up, I began to experience a new level of joy and happiness.

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Life change at 50 being in Recovery & Mental illness to Boot!

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Hello Friends,
I'm looking forward to being a Guest Expert Blogger come October 2013. But right now my Life has been turned Upside Down.....We are in the middle of having to relocate from So. Oregon to Glendale Arizona! *YUK*! I don't DO HOT weather! So that is why I have not posted in w while. I do however have a *Dear Diary-Life change at 50 in Recovery* going on my Recovery Blog, so if you want the latest SCOOP, I have my first 6 page entries up Now. My Recovery Link is:
http://CatherineLyonaddictedtodimes.wordpress.com So come on by anytime and see what the past 4weeks have been like for ME!! BUT.....MY RECOVERY and MY SENSE OF HUMOR IS IN TACT!!...LOL....I'll see ya all on the FLIP SIDE from ARIZONA! God Bless! Author, Catherine Townsend-Lyon
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